Friday, March 6, 2009
I have been studying with one of my community groups a book by Max Lucado entitled "He Chose The Nails"! Loving Lucado's writing style anyway, this book has had a prof0und effect on me, particularly in this season leading up to the celebration of His death and resurrection! As a group leader, and being somewhat artsy, with my husbands help, I made these replicas of the symbol of the front of the book to hand out to class members, asking them to hold it in the palm of one hand, pointed tip down into the pal, other fingers over the top, and press until the could not take the pain during the entire 2 hours of class! Today, in a quiet moment, the song "I Walked Today Where Jesus Walked" came to my mind out of nowhere! Last evening, in another community group, we watched "The Passion of the Christ!" Nothing else needs to be said about that (other than, if you have not seen it, you absolutely MUST!)In that quiet moment of pondering the impact of the film, even after seeing it for the second time last evening, I was consumed with an absolute feeling of self-disgust and shame that I--Lisa, "Lolli"--I, in my sometimes subtle, oft times obvious, sin, nailed Him to that cross! I beat Him to near death with the whip of my words; I shoved the crown of thorns deep into his flesh with my hateful, vengeful, lustful, jealous thoughts over many years! How in the world could I do that to my SAVIOR, my LORD, my REDEEMER, the LOVER OF MY SOUL, my JESUS! And how, in spite of all of that, could he still love the wretched me that I am? I don't know, I cannot comprehend or pretend to understand! But how incredibly grateful I am that He does! I stand in awe of His Godliness, His Holiness, His Grace, His Mercy, His forgiveness and, above all else, His Love for Lisa ("Lolli") who "once was blind, but now I see! Hallelujah! What a man! What a Savior!
Posted by Lolli (aka Lisa) at 1:55 PM